zac efron for gq

dear zac,
i know i've been a bit preoccupied with ed westwick and penn badgley recently but i promise i haven't forgotten you.

photos from gq may 2009

ink me

after much consideration i've decided what i want for my next tattoo. as i don't have a job or an income that comes with it i can't afford to get tattooed so if anybody would like to pay for it or make a donation towards my cause then all are welcome, no matter how big or small (preferably big). as i didn't pay for my first tattoo, it would be nice to continue this tradition, don't you agree?

snap happy

this is my daddy's old camera from the 60s or 70s. i'm not quite sure when it was made but i know it was made in the ussr. i don't really know how to use it as much as my dad's tried teaching me (i have a short attention span and don't have a big mental capacity unless i write things down). even so, i'm having a go. so far i've mostly just been taking photos of my cats. cats and flowers. i hope they at least come out.

this is a photo of my dad that he took with the camera many many years ago. its pretty cool. he was a bit of a budding photographer in his day but unfortunately threw out a load of the photos he'd accumulated during that time away last year.

postsecret

love in the noughties, is paranoid.

sorry this is a bit of a word-y, carrie bradshaw -esque post. just warning you now so that if you're not interested in reading about that then you can stop now.

you know how girls are a little bit crazy? a lot of the time, as i like to think, girls keep this crazy locked up inside their heads and hide it from whoever they're dating/going out with. all girls have a certain amount, some more than others, and some choose to display their mental more publicly than others. its that bit in your head that thinks about him way more than he thinks about you, that gets jealous (that in normal girls annoys you a bit but in more mental girls drives them crazy), stuff like that.

i, as i have been assured by my good friend rob who i came up with "mental girl syndrome" (mgs) with, don't have that much crazy in me when it comes to boys and the amount i do have i keep quiet about and only ever reveal to certain individuals, mostly him, when i'm drunk. some girls openly discuss all their crazy feelings to other girls because they feel they understand, some girls hide away them away through embarassment.the more mental girls tend to try and discuss their crazy feelings to their beloved and get more crazy when that person doesn't seem to understand. boys just aren't made that way. or so i thought until recently, when i discovered that certain boys harbour their own mental. its not too dissimilar to that suffered by the female of the species. i must point out i don't have much experience with how crazy girls are, i like to think i make other girls feel embarassed about their obsessions and abnormal thoughts when it comes to men. most of what i know about how a girl's mgs manifests is through tales from rob's love life. some of them i must say make me truly ashamed to be a girl. he is an especially tolerant boy though and finds some girls' mentalaties quirky and bearable to withstand if there are more beneficial factors to the relationship (girls don't get ahead of yourselves this is VERY rare).

anyway during the past year i've come to discover that boys too can be a bit mental. it is rarer in boys but not as rare as i thought (or maybe i just attract that kinda boy?). its reassuring to know that boys suffer from it too but rather than girls who can get away with it because,y'know, they're a girl; if you're a mental boy then you tend just to labelled a creep. also, at least normal girls try to hide their mental these boys make no excuse for it. i would use examples of mental (creepy) boys but their the type of boy who would publicly just ask if this post was written about them so alas you'll never know who you are.

you give me the most gorgeous sleep that i've ever had.

a very important date

lovely lovato

i love demi lovato. not just because she's star of my guilty pleasure disney's "camp rock" (joe jonas ftw) but she's got a wicked sense of style. i'm currently spotifying her new album and it's not too shabby either. she likes norwegian black metal band dimmu borgir according to her wiki page, respect for that. the only thing i don't like is that she's only sixteen and i hate it when people younger than me are way more cooler and successful than i'll ever be. she recently broke up with boyfriend trace cyrus, she was totally wasted on him anyway. follow her on twitter @ddlovato. another little fact for you, she's the half sister of the actress who plays gabrielle's chubby daughter juanita in 'desperate housewives'.

productive

today i have made :

BUNTING

(an example of my previously mentioned attempts to inject my feminity into the male dominated household i will soon be inhabiting)

...and a heart shaped mocha sponge with coffee buttercream icing



i should be on blue peter.

its nice to see my blog's been getting more followers and views, thank you so much! xx
p.s. that means you doug, you're pretty much the reason i made a heart shaped cake, miss you babycakes.

down the rabbit hole

i'm bad at blogging so click to make it bigger.

trinkets

i want pretty much everything from this website eclectic eccentricity jewellery

lulz

500 days of summer

the smiths, joseph gordon-levitt AND my girl crush, zooey deschanel, could i want to see this film anymore?

putting the 'fit' in urban 'outfitters'

want

"i'm chuck bass"

que sera, cera

i don't care if michael cera plays the same character in everything and he's practically just playing himself, i love him. literally can't wait to see this

vena cava papyrus gets my vena cava pumping

i love this vena cava papyrus dress more than its right to love a dress. as seen in white on serena (blake lively) in gossip girl and in black on alexa chung. i found it on a website in the sale, shame it was still $288. oh and only comes in a size 8.

r.i.p. dash snow

sfg (so fucking girly)

in 7 weeks and 4 days i get to move back to new cross and live with people i actually like. i don't know whether its the propect of living with five boys that's making me want to assert my feminity into the house or whether its just the maternal home-maker in me but i've become obsessed with the idea of decorating 424 new cross road in flowers and pink. don't worry guys, if any of you are reading this, i'm not actually going to. maybe i just want my own slice of something pretty in the urban jungle of south london.

summer romance

i'm all snuggled up wearing my favourite vintage (charity shop) jumper with my lovely cat and a cup of tea whilst the summer rain is pouring down outside (turns out the cat just wanted feeding and has since buggered off, aww). i'm kinda enjoying the summer rain we've been having broken up with spells of sunshine and its made me wish i was on a caravanning holiday. now, the cox family, with the except of papa cox are not very outdoors. saying that, even he would never entertain the idea of camping or caravanning. i hate camping. even, no scrap that, especially at festivals which, (apart from a school trip in year 8 to north wales, eww), is the only place i have ever camped. i think i'd be good at caravans though. admittedly, i have a very romanticised idea of caravanning holidays but i would only enjoy it if it was a romantic mini break in a quaintly decorated, preferably all in cath kidston, caravan OR in a stunning romany gypsy caravan. if you are a handsome man who would like to spend a week/weekend with me held up in a cosy caravan then let me know. i am also open to the idea of tipis and yurts but absolutely no tents.